Kerana Salah Faham...

"Kadang2 sebuah persahabatan yg dibina berpuluh tahun lamanya boleh musnah hanya kerana sesaat salah faham yang melanda...."
Itu lah kata2 yg ku tulis di status FB ku. Bkn sekadar ucapan tetapi ia menggambarkan apa yg ku alami dan ku rasai akhir2 ini. Hanya kerana salah faham dan syak wasangka serta bawaan mulut seseorg yg suka melihat org bergaduh menyebabkan seseorg itu berubah tingkahlaku. Disebabkan itu, aku rasa suasana pejabat sudah tidak seperti dulu. Kalau dulu, kami sentiasa berkongsi cerita, luahan rasa dan pendapat dan bergelak ketawa, dan sekarang semua tu berkurangan... Tiada tegur dan sapaan yg ceria seperti dulu, tiada perkongsian maklumat dan luahan rasa, tiada perkongsian cerita kehidupan kami sehari2.

Aku sgt keliru sekarang, sama ada aku perlu pulihkan keadaan atau biarkan masa menentukan segalanya... Sekiranya aku memilih untuk memulihkan keadaan, maka aku perlu merendah diri dan memohon maaf di atas segala salah faham dan kekeliruan yang timbul atau just let the time heals everything... which require patient in my heart to bare with this miss communication, cold and silence treatment and never ending doubt and mistrust... Do I have the strength to face this???

Monolog: I'm finding the strength to face the day....

Changes

Hmmm, now it's already middle of February of new year, 2011. There's a lot of changes in life but i still did't have time to update my blog... It was so long ago, my last update was back in august last year. No other excuses to be given except lazy and no interest to write at that time... And now, boredom is hitting me and I have no one to talk to.. I guess I need something to let out my mixed feeling...

Yes, there's a lot of changes in my life;

1. There's a new member in my family
2. Aizara goes to new school and has to deal with other kind of friends everyday (which I have to listen to her story everyday...)
3. Office environment is so different after I come back from my long leaves.... (everybody is busy with their own things... laughing and chatting become lesser and lesser.... turn the lively office to a very dull office... that's what i feel)
4. Cold and dead friendship with old time friend... (which really make me sad....)

First 2 changes are positive changes, which I really, really happy with those changes. But 2 latter changes are really devastating me... My character change a bit because of it. I used to be a person who love to talk, love to share things and now.... I become a bit quiet, isolated from others and feel awkward to join the group (that my old friend is in) that is gossiping while having lunch... I feel awkward to 'terjah' (which I always do)... I feel awkward to 'sembang, sembang' freely with my officemates.... I really lost my identity... I lost focus in life. I feel uneasy all the time during working time.. The only peace that I felt is at home....

The word 'why, why, why' is always in my mind... Why??? There is an incident happen last 2 weeks which cracks the friendship that we built for years. Just because of the HEARSAY and the BLACK HEARTED person who invigorate (or may be twist) things that I said and a reactive person who cannot accept comments from me and has some issues to face me.

Hmmm, when this gonna end? I really tired of this. I just need a new air to breath, a new environment to work in.... Just let time to decide what's gonna happen... Pray to Allah for the best.

1st Day of Ramadhan....

Hari ni 1st day puasa di bulan ramadhan. Aku tak de keinginan utk memikirkan menu utk berbuka puasa. Tp apa yg aku rasa, aku juz nak makan ikan percik je. Terbayang2 di mata aku ikan percik yg mak aku masak... Rindu betul...

Memandangkan aku balik lewat, tak sempat nak masak, tambahan plak tak de bahan mentah kat rumah, so me and my husband decided to stop by kat Bazaar Ramadhan kat Presint 2 Putrajaya (actually we've been planning to go there a few days before puasa lagi).

So, after work,aku singgah bank jap nak bank in check and withdraw cash skit... It's took awhile pasal nak kene isi form utk deposit cheque tu, cheque plak ada 5 keping (amount tak de la byk...). After that kami terus heading ke Bazaar Ramadhan.

Hubby aku tanya, ada ke tak de bazaar ni. Cam tak de org je... Aku kata dah start dah... sb kita dah start puasa dah. So, masa nak cari parking tu, MasyaAllah, punya la ramai org... So after parking, terus la kami ke tapak bazaar... Org tersangat ramai, masing2 berbaris di gerai2 nk beli makanan. Org berjalan berpusu-pusu dan almost all gerais penuh sesak. Ada jugak yg aku nmpak gerai yg cam tak bukak...

Most of the gerais ada je customer yg berbaris... Nak masuk tgk pun tak boleh.. Hampir semua gerai murtabak berbaris panjang... So kami terpaksa melupakan murtabak utk hari ini... Bila singgah kat gerai yg tak ramai org, baru je jenguk kepala, tuan punye gerai dah sound, dah abis kak!! Air gula abis, kak... Nasi abis,dik... Minyak goreng abis,dik...Gas abis, dik... Mak Aiii, abis apa aku nak beli ni??No wonder tak de org kat gerai, rupe2nye dah abis... Ada gerai yg dah tutup and dah balik pun... Haru betul...

At the end, dpt gak la juadah berbuka puasa... but no special juadah pun. The only meals yg kami beli ialah, nasi ayam, nasi kerabu, kuah kurma dan burger prosper.... Kuih muih semua dah abis... Kempunan aku nak makan karipap and ikan percik....

(Gambar ehsan dari http://azizie8.blogspot.com/ and http://duchessofkent.wordpress.com/)

Kawan Pindah.....

Tadi masa tgh makan, Aizara cakap, "Pikachu dah pindah ke Pahang...." Aku terkejut, "Hah, Pikachu dah pindah?" Aizara jawab, "A'ah! dia tak datang sekolah tadi..." Abah pun menyampuk, "Patut la pagi tadi dia cam tanya, Pikachu datang sekolah ke tak ari ni...."

Ala, kesian, Aizara... Ramai dah kawan2nye berpindah... Tinggal dia dgn beberapa org je lg kawan2 dia... Patut la dia cam tak suka pergi sekolah (taska) dia... Rupanya kawan2 dia ramai dah tak ada...

Pikachu (a.k.a Shafikah) tu antara budak terawal di taska tu. Pada masa aku mula2 antar aizara ke situ, Aizara berumur 3 bulan. Shafikah pulak berusia 2 bulan. Aku masih ingat lagi Shafikah pada masa tu memang kuat nangis.

Aizara pernah meninggalkan taska tu masa aku sambung belajar di UK. Tp dia meninggalkan taska tu hanya untuk tempoh setahun. Lepas aku balik drp UK, aku hantar lg Aizara ke taska yang sama. So, dia jumpa la balik kawan2 seangkatan dengannya... Antara kawan yg rapat dengan dia, Kasih Alia, Nurin, Amar, Shafikah and etc...

Aku cakap kat dia, "Sian Aizara, kawan Aizara tak de..." Tp dia dgn positifnye menjawab, "Tak pe, Aizara ada kawan baru... Nabihah, Atikah, Ayuney, Adam Haikal and etc... Alhamdulillah, she's ok with the situation....

New Business

This is a new syllabus of my life... I'm entering a new business life... I share business with my sister.. It's an online business. This is a trend nowadays.. People like selling things online, people like shopping things online. So, this give opportunity for business-minded people to gain profit. Plus, to fill their spare time to do this activity. An Facebook is very powerful tool to do marketing....

This is a new experience to me. Now most of my spare time (especially at night after long working hours) is filled. What do I do? Mostly I entertain my customers, reply customers' message, update my facebook status, update my photos info and now recording the cashflow... It's really challenged me... I have to recall everything that I learned about accounting in my lower secondary school (after that, I stop learning those stuff as I have scientist's mind... hehehe)Luckily, I have my sister who expert in accounting... She really make me understand about accounting and stuff... Hopefully we can maintain the business... And hopefully the business will grow....

Do visit us, guys....

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001079326594#!/album.php?aid=16500&id=100001079326594

http://idailham.blogspot.com/

Nothing Interesting

Hmmm, dah lama tak bukak blog ni... Almost 1yr... Dah tak tau nk bg alasan apa... Skrg aku ada azam baru utk sentiasa menulis di blog ni.... So, for today, what should I write, ya???

Actually, I juz came back from attending a course for 3 days... During that course, we've been asked to prepare our protocol for our systematic review project.. We've been working for 3 days and 2 nights continuously.... So, tonight I really dont know what to do... Anak tgh buat her activity book, hubby tgh study his next task... Me??? Juz now updated myself on FB friends' status... Not much going on on FB, i try to search some recipes to bake biscuits... Nothing interesting... And now, I'm blogging.... But I don't have any interesting to share so.... I press a full stop button....

Good nite, blog readers... where ever you are...

Aku yang malas....

Lately (bkn lately je....) aku sgt malas nak berblogging.... Padahal byk je masa yg aku ada kat umah tp aku lebih suka melayan games drp berblogging... Dapat main solitaire pun jadi la..... Itu pun boleh mengasyikkan aku....

Hmmm, aku rasa perangai ni dah menurun kat anak aku.... Last Sunday, the whole day anak aku main game PS2... Satu game je yg dia main pun... The game called "BOMBASTIC". Aku sgt suka ngan game ni... It is a kind of puzzle game yg tak heavy. Tp u need to think fast and make strategies to achieve the goals within the time. It is very addictive... Klu dah start main, mmg tak leh berhenti.... So satu hari la aku melayan anak aku main.... sometimes sampai gaduh2.... sb dia lmbt move... hehehe... And I'm waiting for the weekend to play that game AGAIN!!!!